I’m up making lunch waiting for Justin to get here since we are are suppose to hang out today. Nothing too serious just watch a couple movies and play some video games or something. Its just our best friend time, really simply doing nothing together.
"Hey." I hear from behind me. I admit I might have jumped because I got scared.
"Justin what the hell! My mom let you in didn’t she?" I asked him.
"Nope Bryan. But anyway whats for lunch?" he asks. Of course his focus is on food.
"Burgers. But whats up with you, how’s your little girlfriend?" I ask him.
"Oh God, not you too!" He moaned.
"What do you mean not me too?" I put the burgers and fries on two plates and giving him on before sitting at the breakfast bar.
"My little girlfriend? Really Sel. I thought this was one sided but you don’t like Ciana either, this is just great!" He said and started muttering to himself while starting to eat. I heard a few things like "wtf" and "I don’t understands girls".
"Um, I never said I didn’t like her. I just don’t know her." I tell him taking a bite of my food. "So she said she didn’t like me huh. No big surprise there." I add.
"Why isn’t it a surprise?" he asks.
"Are you slow Justin? Its pretty obvious, but I’m sure you were too lovestruck to notice." I say laughingly.
"Woah I’m not lovestruck don’t do that. But I really didn’t notice I just thought ya’ll were being weird girls honestly." he admitted. See he’s slow.
"Nah, but what did she say about it?" I asked curiously.
"Nothing really, she just was saying how she thought we were too close for friends and it bothered her." He mumbled.
"So she’s jealous." I said trying to hold back my laughter.
"Don’t laugh, she isn’t jealous per se. She just said that we sometimes act more than friends and I kind of see where she was coming from but at the same time I don’t. I don’t know what to do Sel." Justin sighed.
I don’t know what to think. I mean it makes sense. I always figured the reason she didn’t like me was because of Justin, but are we really that close?
"So wait are we really that close Justin, Like enough for her to be upset by it.? I just don’t see it." I respond.
"I don’t know but apparently its like all the talk at school. People have been in her ear telling her to be careful and stuff." he says.
"People can never mind their own business." I admit a bit annoyed. Everyone always has something to say when it come to me. Its getting tiring.
"True. Plus she thought there was something between us before I started talking to her." Justin says before bursting out in laughter. Well damn is it really that funny.
"Funny. Like I’d ever date you Justin, your just too…you." I say before joining in on the laughter.
"Hey f you Sel. I’m amazing. Just ask Ciana." he stops laughing to say.
"Yeah no I’m good. But are ya’ll offical now?" I ask him.
"Yeah after we talked about it we decided to just seal the deal. Its cool. I haven’t had a girlfriend since way before I left Atlanta. Its gonna be weird, but we will see. What about you? Still breaking guys hearts?" Justin says.
"I’m happy for you honestly. But yeah no, I’m good," I tell him before getting up to throw my plate away and start cleaning the dishes.
"Why not? I mean from what I hear you and Fredo are through and besides he’s talking to-. I mean it would be good for you to actually settle down with someone else." he finishes talking. I turn to look at him but he’s avoiding looking at me.
"He’s talking to who?" I ask quietly.
"No one. Want help cleaning up?" he says trying to change the subject.
"No Justin. I’ve got it, just…tell me." I say before putting up all my mess.
"I wasn’t going to tell you it just came out, but Fredo started talking to this girl a little bit after I started talking to Cee and apparently its getting serious." he says cautiously.
Wow. I’m a bit dumbfounded right now. Its not like I never thought he would move on or anything, well maybe I did. Its just ugh. I quickly wiped the tear that fell down my face before Justin could see it and walked out of the kitchen without saying anything.
Of course Justin followed me upstairs to my room. I just sit down on my bed waiting for him to say something because I know he won’t let this go.
"Are you sad?" he asks quietly as he sat beside me.
"Not sad really, just…I can’t explain it." I paused trying to get my thoughts together. "I think I was just so used to him trying to apologize and get me back that I didn’t think he would eventually give up." I admit to Justin and myself.
Ever since we broke up, Alfredo has been doing everything to make me forgive him and I did anything to make it hard for him. I admit after I stopped crying over him, I started talking to other guys to spite him. I just wanted him to hurt like he hurt me since he wanted me back. But afterwards I started being more about having fun than about pissing him off.
"Do you not want him to give up?" Justin asked making the cutest confused face.
"I don’t know. I guess so. I’m just in shock. But, I do think its time we really move past this anyway because the way things look I’m never getting away from him since he’s not only Francia’s cousin but you guys are all buddy buddy too." I say ready to move on from this conversation, but I meant what I said. I think Fredo getting a new girlfriend might be for the best. I just hope he treats her better than he did me.
"Yeah. Its for the best really Sel." Justin said while laying on my bed, grabbing the remote, and flipping through the channels. Get comfortable why don’t you.
I heard my vibrate against my dresser so I got up to get it, its probably just one of the girls anyway.
New message from Dylan: Hey.
I wonder what he wants and lay down next to Justin before replying back my hello. His response was quick.
Dylan: How are you? We haven’t talked in a while.
Selena: Ikr. But I’m good. U?
Dylan: Same. We have to catch up. Only time I ever see you is in class and it really sucks :(
I couldn’t help but giggle to myself. How cute is he.
Selena: I know how horrible. What are we going to do about that…
Dylan: Well you obviously have to let me take you out again soon.
Selena: Oh obviously huh? Is that so?
Dylan: Definitely, you would have an amazing time.
Selena: U seem really sure about that
Dylan: Because I am. Are you busy tonight?
Selena: Yeah hanging out with my friend Justin
Dylan: Oh…The new kid right?
Selena: Yup we’re having best friend bonding day.
Dylan: Oh alright, how about dinner sometime next week? I’ll make it worth your while.
"Who are you talking to?" I hear Justin say. I didn’t even notice that I was that into my conversation with Dylan.
"None of your business nosy!" I push him away since he was trying to read my messages.
"Who is Dylan and are you going to go to dinner with him." Justin stated. Ugh why did he see.
"Dylan is a friend, kind of. Well he’s more Sammy’s friend than mine but I hung out with him a few times." I tell him while trying to think of my answer to the other question. Was I going to go to dinner with Dylan? I mean I know I told the girls that I would try to open up to guys more and Dylan is a really sweet guy and I already kind of know him so it wouldn’t be too bad to start with him right?
"And are you going to dinner with him?" Justin said curiously.
"I don’t maybe. He’s really nice, I just don’t know. I know he’s going to think more of it than it is." I say softly. I silently reflect on the pros and cons of saying yes to Dylan.
"Think more of it?" Justin says as he rolls on his side to face me. I do the same and face him.
"Yeah. according to Sammy he has this big crush on me and I know he isn’t naive enough to not know that I don’t really date seriously but I don’t want to alienate him by doing the same to him that I do to the other guys." I admit quietly while looking at my hands.
"Then don’t." Justin states. "Sel look at me. I mean it , just don’t treat him the same as you do the others. It might be a good thing you never know." he tells me seriously.
I think about what Justin says which is basically what everyone else has been telling me but I think hearing it from a guy’s perspective helps. I lean over and kiss Justin on his cheek. “Thank you Jay.” I tell him before sitting up to send a text.
To Dylan: Its a date :)